But it's not funny that i have to gorge down maggi mee and peanut butter with bread in the middle of the night to ease the pain, it's not good for my tummy.
I know it sounds crap, then i went to see a specialist at SGH just now, cos my mum was worried when i told her there are blood streaks in my phlegm for the past few days. So i paid S$70 for the respiratory specialist consultant, $42 for two large xrays, $32 for antibiotics ( for 3 days only ) and i have an appointment 2 weeks later to see if i am still ok.
Currently the diagnosis is that my lungs appear healthy and the doctor has no idea why there is blood, cos i have a medical history of PTB. He said if the blood persists, they will have to do a probe down my throat to check for cancerous cells that can't be seen by the x-ray. Well it may be lung cancer ... or throat cancer... or liver cancer...
Until 2 weeks later, i might post my last LJ before i can Camp in at the disgusting SGH waiting for images for my past 22 years to flash within my mind in a second.
Well, it may be consumption.. call me a hypochondriac. But living life too long... makes one to see the world getting uglier...
It may be a blessing to die when you are the happiest.
"you've gotta go on christian, you've got so much more to give"
"tell our story, that way, i'll always be with you"