Dearest,
I feel certain that I am going mad again: I feel we can't go through another of these terrible times. And I shan't recover this time. I begin to hear voices, and can't concentrate. So I am doing what seems the best thing to do. you have given me the greatest possible happiness. You have been in every way all that anyone could be. I don't think two people could have been happier till this craziness came. I can't fight it any longer, I know that i am spoiling your life, that without me you could work. And you will I know. You see I can't even write this properly. I can't read.

What I want to say is that i owe all the happiness of my life to you. You have been entirely patient with me and incredibly good. I want to say that - everybody knows it. If anybody could have saved me it would have been you. Everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness.

I can't go on spoiling your life any longer. I don't think two people could have been happier than we have been.

B